The cause of Worry

Mentioned to Mahaprabu that sometimes I go into this Worry-Loop, a kind of heavy feeling and it takes time to come out of it. Most often the cause is that I am not putting to practice the teachings, especially the ‘be aware, be in the present moment’ teaching. This was his response.

What gives that heavy feeling

So many things inside the body are happening automatically. Therefore collectively the body is operating automatically. During day-to-day activities it is good to feel the substratum (Feeling of Existence). You will experience it as though you are a leaf freely blowing in the wind. As you feel the substratum more and more, the idea of an individual will eventually come to zero. The absence of mind is seen. The body will function externally also automatically. Mahaprabu’s body is very light. Sometimes he does not know if it is even there or not. Thought is the one that is heavy. That’s why lazy people are created. Since their thoughts are heavy they can’t function well.

GR: When interacting with people, the substratum, awareness is dormant.
Mahaprabu: Since identification with the Ego is strong. Ice caps may be strong but the sun has begun rising. They won’t melt at 6 am. It will take time. Don’t worry. Instead, feel the joy when you are aware again. Tell the ego: You have played your role. Do your thing but your time of expiry has started. That should be the attitude.

Worry leads to Tamoguna

Worry is bad. It leads to Tamoguna. You will eat, shout, sleep, TV, look for sex etc. Don’t worry that you are not Aware. Accept that due to identification with Ego, that incident happened. Counsel yourself that learning has started. Years, Janmas of bad habit is the cause, but the End is near. Guru always forgives. Guru sees only one thing in a disciple: Is he sincere in getting rid of ignorance.

Accept that you know only all this intellectually. Only now you’re starting to practice. All this can happen when we are courageous and ‘encourageous’ to ourself. So try the opposite when you are worried. Instead of worrying about slipping on ice, rejoice over the Sunrise. Practice consistently. Have faith. GR is fake. Ātma is real. Under any circumstance don’t lose this faith. This attitude is very essential to progress. Satsang will help, like a float or life vest. Laugh at yourself. Make it a fun game. Enlightenment as a goal should be joyful. Enjoy the path. It’s like this: Two people enter a forest. One is extremely nervous and fears every step. The other person enjoys nature at every step and is happy. Who would have had a better experience traveling through the forest?

Only high-ego people are enlightened

Don’t worry. No one is going to hang you. Poradhe Varadhukaga thane (Your leaving awareness is only to come back!). Due to impatience, expectation of immediate results we worry. Tremendous patience is needed. Like a pendulum. And the more the Ego, the more the swing. The high ego person suffers the consequences of his ego tremendously (goes to one extreme) and that suffering drives him to conquer it (goes to the other extreme). This is why high-ego people are enlightened. Only they are eligible. Ordinary people cannot enter. When Mahaprabu meets a seeker, he scans. A Jnani has no Ego. But no Ego does not mean you are eligible, since Ego is needed, it is a requirement. The Jnani will still accept the low Ego seeker, but he will actually work on developing their Ego!. Only a professional builder can destroy a building well!

Keep on practicing

Keep on practicing awareness. Thank it. The sun is rising. Keep encouraging yourself. With high-energy and tremendous patience go forward. Substratum/Ātman is there. Body is there. World is there. No GR. Without GR this existence has existed. GR is purely imaginary!

When you convert these understandings into practice you will experience it. By following the Master step-by-step the student will reach the final step and know the answer. Everything will happen. Don’t miss anything. Enjoy the game. Don’t worry. Don’t forget that the substratum, Immortality is our nature.