Attention on the Feeling of Existence

From young we have craved and struggled for many things. As a child we craved toys, chocolates, ice creams. As a youth it was sensual pleasures, fancy shoes etc. Then it was career, house, car etc. One by one they have gone away. Similarly in spirituality you start to focus your attention on the Awareness, the feeling of Existence, the formless. It is formless but is not a void. It is full of love, with energy, with grace, with light. When you focus your attention on this feeling of Existence, slowly your struggle with other things will disappear. This is the only way.

When your attention is diverted and focused on this Feeling of Existence ALWAYS… (Mahaprabu repeated the slow movement of his hand as he said the word ALWAYS, to show that even that movement should not distract you from the attention on the Feeling of Existence). ALWAYS means NOW. You must give this much value, to THIS ONE, the one which is living in this body, the one which is full of love.

Feel Love. You know its power

See, you feel LOVE in your body, Right? Where do you feel love? In the leg? In the bones? In the flesh? Hairs? You may love your flesh or hair. But love is not in the flesh or hair. And yet love is there. That is the Center. Focus your attention on that Loving Center. Don’t imagine Atma, Brahman, Consciousness. You don’t know about those things. Feel that Center. You already know the power of Love. When you touch someone with love, you know the feeling. When you are touched by someone lovingly, you know that feeling. Someone even looking at you lovingly, you know that feeling. You know the power of Love. Love may be shown through the eyes but Love is not in the eyes. A wonderful thing is available in us named Love. That Love is the entry pass to meet God. Give more and more importance to that. Love exists in you and Existence exists in you through Love. Nothing else needs to be learned or imagined. God, Atma, all these are mere words for you. On the other hand, you already know the feeling of Love. Give importance, give attention to it. Very quickly it will take you to the Center.

The nucleus is the Center of an Atom. But when you look into the Nucleus, that Center has another Center called the Nucleolus. Similarly, Love is the Center. But that Love has another Center. When you catch, when you hold on to Love, it will take you to the inner Center, which is the root; the connection with the Eternal. When you are able to find and reach that root, then fear will disappear. Joy, and ecstasy abound. To reach that root, Love is the route.

So give more and more importance to the feeling of Love. The only thing that is freely available in the universe, which cannot be exhausted, and grows when it is given is LOVE. When your heart is completely filled with Love, Enlightenment is bound to happen. In the process of Loving, in the process of feeling the Love in you, your Ego is bound to disappear. That no ego state is called the state of Enlightenment. Slowly, try to bring it.

First, learn to love You

For example, see how important your Neck is. It connects the body to the head, the brain. The esophagus and trachea, passage for food and air are in the neck. Thyroid and Parathyroid glands are there in the neck. At the back, the spinal cord goes through the neck to connect to the brain. Imagine a life without the neck, where your head is stuck to your torso. You wouldn’t be able to turn it. This neck is a beautiful creation of God. Mahaprabu held his neck with both hands and said: Have you touched your neck like this with love and gratitude, at least once in your entire life? We are touching a dog with love. The neck is just one portion. How many such portions are in our body? First, express your love for yourself. Start there. And whenever you express love, do it with Gratitude. When you do that, you are expressing love for God. And then express your love throughout the Universe. In your life, at least one time have you conveyed your love to the Whole Universe? ‘I am loving the whole universe. The universe has given me a place here.’ Have you ever done this? But you have love in you. Not showing love is also an offense! You have an inexhaustible source of Love. Even when everything is lost, this source will still be available, even in your last moment, even if the body is about to perish. At that moment also if you express Love, it will give you a continuity. That invisible continuity is Love, that invisible continuity is God.

I am not asking you to express your love by hugging a stranger. Because it may not be reciprocated and some other things may happen! In each and every action try to bring love. Even if you have scolded someone, if you are unable to give love at the time, as soon as it is over go back and send love towards him. That is sowing the seeds of love after the thunderstorm.

Love is the feeling that will take you to the Feeling of Existence. Love is the nucleus, Feeling of Existence is the nucleolus. Love is the stem and Feeling of Existence is the root. As there is a root, the stem is. As there is the stem, the root is. The whole thing is called the plant. You can’t separate them. Bring your attention to the Feeling of Existence, that you Exist. No one needs to tell you that you Exist. Your body or thoughts aren’t needed for that. Who created that? Who are we? The body or the Feeling of Existence (Unarvu). The body came from the uterus and is going to the grave. Will this feeling go with it? What will happen to it? Where is Love, Yearning, etc that is in us? Where is it? Is it in the body? Or is it in that feeling of Existence? (Singing Sadhu Om’s Song: Ini yenum enni yedhu naan, idhayaasanathil amaradho)

The biggest mistake thus far

If I am NOT the body, i.e. I am the Feeling of Existence, then all my assumptions so far have been totally wrong. For the last 50 years. What a terrible mistake. You’ve been doing so many things thinking you are the body. As a slave to ‘I’, having worked for it all these years, doing everything to protect the ‘I’, to protect a total lie. For example, you believe someone is a good person. But you find out he has been betraying you all the while. How bad will you feel? Similarly having found out that you aren’t this body, and that the ego has been destroying you with this identification, how much worse should you feel? You feel bad for small losses. This here is the biggest fraud, the biggest loss, the biggest miscalculation. How bad should you feel? Compared to this betrayal, all the losses you’ve ever had don’t matter at all. Those are irrelevant. And what is the price that you have paid for the biggest mistake you’ve committed? What is the result? All your suffering. But by the grace of God and his nature to forgive, you are getting another chance. He has put you here.

This Feeling of Existence, Unarvu is the only real reason you are able to exist and sense your body and the world around you. Your body functions because of it. So, more than the body, more than the world you should focus your attention on this Feeling of Existence. Then you would not suffer and complain about all the little things that affect the body (mind included). The body has a thousand issues that will drag you down. The world has a Lakh issues that will drag you down. Both only trap you.

Awareness on Awareness

So no matter what you are doing, keep on bringing the awareness to that Feeling of Existence. You will miss it many times. You will get TIRED. Why? Because you haven’t TRIED it so far (laughing!) But don’t let that stop you. Keep on trying. Keep on trying. Feel your own Existence. That is all I’m asking you. I’m not asking you to enquire Who Am I continuously or chant some mantra continuously. Wherever you go or whatever you do, ‘You’ (referring to unarvu or feeling of existence) are there. Without ‘You’ it is not possible. Just recall and confirm moment to moment. Yes, I am there. Yes, I am there. Try it sincerely. For 12 months try it without missing a single day. This year will be the most wonderful in your life. (We clapped.) Mahaprabu looked at a disciple and said: Your hands are clapping right now, but your attention is not on the Feeling that you Exist. Disciple: I was thinking! Mahaprabu: Thinking is not going to give you anything. Instead of thanking me for catching you unaware, you are saying you are thinking. In your mind you are a seeker of Truth, analyzing what the Master says. Who asked you to think? I’m asking you to feel your own Existence. In fact, this entire talk came from you. I saw you serving coffee without Awareness. That’s where this talk is coming from.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, even speaking with others, keep the attention on that feeling of Existence. It is there.

If you are unable to feel it, close your eyes and keep your hands on your chest. Feel that touch. Feel the air coming and going. The lungs expanding and contracting. Who is feeling all these things? That is the Feeling of Existence. Something that is aware of all this; that exists in the body but is beyond the body.