Feeling towards Guru

Mahaprabu: There is a primary ignorance that I am a human being. Clearly there was a time when people did not know they were humans. Yet, they had a feeling of their Existence. That same Existence feeling is still there today. But they felt it more than us. This is because today, the ‘I am a human’ thought masks it. Is this thought necessary?

Going to special places or pilgrimages only strengthens it. Once having surrendered, planning should not be there. Surrender means body, mind, and Spirit have been surrendered. Since you did not ask Sri Mahaprabu’s permission, nature intervened in various forms. If you had asked Mahaprabu, I would have said No. While you were describing your intentions for the trip, I could feel a strong No. But surrender still worked! Guru’s energy will help you make the right move. By thinking of Guru as a mere name and form, your energy is limited because the opening in you is small. But when you think of him as a supreme power, even though it is a thought, you will find a larger opening in you. In fact, it is the supreme power in you that is opening up. Therefore, the Unarvu (feeling) of Guru as a supreme power is good for you.

SC: The mind moves towards unimportant things even though I understand well in theory that it is the wrong thing.

Mahaprabu: For example, A great leader e.g. a president, might have thousands of employees but it is impossible for him to know each one of them. That is why they have a hierarchy from top to bottom where each layer knows the layer below. But it is not like that with the Guru. Whoever thinks of the Guru, whether or not the Guru thinks about him they are blessed. They are connected. You are connected to Mahaprabu. That’s why even though you did not tell him you are going, nature intervened since you had signed the ‘MOU’ (using Memorandum of Understanding as a simile). Similarly also, Mahaprabu has signed the MOU, that at all times, without expecting anything in return, without compromising your situation, his only goal is moving me towards enlightenment. You might violate your side of the agreement, but Mahaprabu will never.

More on Surrender

Spend every minute with Mahaprabu, as much as you can. You are coming to Chennai. Spend maximum time with Guru when you are there.
GR: Yes, this was my intention and I knew it conflicted with my desire to be in solitude on the banks of the Ganges.

Mahaprabu: Nature has guided you to the Master. You have found water in a place. Will you not continue to dig there? Only then will you add to what you have got. Instead will you move away and try somewhere else, then somewhere else? You don’t have much time. Use it vigorously. At every instant think of the Guru. That’s why in earlier days they had Namavali so God will be in the mind of the chanter always. Always think that Mahaprabu is with me. I am only here for Jnānam. Only for that, each day has been given to me. For me to learn that I am the nameless, formless being. You have only two choices: a) You can take on more janmās and add to your karmās or b) Leave all your karmās and return home by attaining Jnāna. Study of books, wealth, relations, none of these got you happiness this far. Mahaprabu is trying to wake you up. He came in your way, and stopped you from going in that same direction, e.g. East, and made me turn Westward. You need a strong decision sense, that you will no longer go back East, because if you do, you will have to track backward, all those steps. Mahaprabu knows what is East and what is West, because he also at one point was traveling East.