GR: Once again, I have been going down a loop of thoughts and sadness. Maybe it is due to the absence of things to do, as you have asked me to stop reading as well as many other activities.

Note: Before getting into the details, Sri Mahaprabu cautioned me that what he was about to say was appropriate for my current understanding. It had been less than a year since I had the blessing of meeting Mahaprabu. Later on, more truths will come, he said and then proceeded.

Mahaprabu: Ribhu Gita has a song: Varruthhamilladhirukkayilum varuthham pola, vazhu utra maa pavi manadhil thondrum. Actually, there is no varuttham (sadness) in you, but still there will be a sadness reflected. You are feeling the effect of it, so there is no denying it. There are a few reasons for it.

First, the ego as it dies slowly, it won’t like it. Old habits. It’s hard to break. For e.g. if someone who sleeps a lot during the day starts to break the habit, even if he has decided at the buddhi (intellect) level to stay awake, there will be a longing for it.

Secondly, the Anma (Atma) inside is perarivu (Supreme Intelligence). As the body gets older and older, whether you accept it or not, Anma Arivu knows this body is getting old. There are two people there. The ego servant who is behaving like a king. And the real king, Ātma, who is in sick mode. The original owner is Ātma who sees the Servant doing all these things and I am unable to do anything. The Servant does not care about the body, age, death, etc. Because if not this body, another one will do. For a thief, if a house he is about to rob is catching fire, he will simply move to the next one. Only that house owner will worry about the fire! So, this is one of the main reasons for depression. Ātma will keep showing it to you. Life is expiring. This servant (ego) is destroying you. By the way: For this stage, what I am telling you is correct. As you progress, more truths will come.

All this Udal (body), Manam (mind), Anma are all really a manifestation or an integral part of Ātma only. Body, Mind and Ātma. Body is like an outer layer of Ātma. Again just for this state of yours now, what I am saying is correct, so understand it that way. Can there be a body without Ātma? No. That means there is definitely a relationship between Ātma and Body. When the body gets disease it will eventually die. Similarly, Mind also develops sickness and is affected. But the body gets affected very quickly. Even small things cause immediate allergic reactions. Body is the first victim. For example, when someone cuts you, first the pain is in the body, later on, you might feel sad that he did it to you. Where will you find more impact? In the body more. Yes the mind will have some impact but mainly the body. And as you move deeper, compared to body and mind, the impact will be even less on the Ātma. For e.g. A hand is cut off, still the mind continues. Ātma also continues. All this is for your understanding for now. Hand gone, Mind exists, Ātma exists. Mind has some pain. Ātma is also highly sensitive and intelligent. So it will have some pain. It is not a fool. Yet it is surviving, existing. If this is the mechanism, then: One day the whole body will die. The Mind will? Continue. Pain because of the death of the body will be there. Ātma will also have a trace of this pain. That’s why the fear of death is there. The mind projects this fear from where? From Ātma. Understand this principle. We are discussing a very important topic. Body can be destroyed. Mind can be changed and it can forget. For example it forgets so many injuries, so many deaths. But that trace is accumulated in Ātma for so many births. Can this cover around it create a happy feeling for Ātma?

This painful trace R is new to this mind (referring to the mind in this life), but Ātma will release it frequently to the mind. For example, If you keep changing rental homes so many times, you’ll forget details about the first home. Similarly, the mind has forgotten old deaths. It is now only concerned about this body and life. But Ātma has old traces and releases sadness suddenly. Mind B will get confused. ‘Everything is going well, why am I sad?’ That’s why.

GR: But does everyone feel this way?

Mahaprabu: Of course. That’s why they watch TV, phones, etc. Only a few like you come to Anmigam (the spiritual path).
Understand this well. Just like disease enters a body, the pain will enter from R to Ātma. But it can’t die. Imagine the kodumai, tragedy. R won’t die. It will take energy from Ātma and keep projecting it to the mind. Mind is like a lens. It will be projecting all these feelings onto you. You will get confused. I’ve been doing all this to be happy, but I still feel sad and worried. The reason for worry is inside, not outside.

So to overcome this, as you are more and more in Satsang and in contact with Satguru, he will say, all that is fine: Are you A, are you B, are you R? NO. So try to focus on the freedom of C. Free it from R. But due to habit, we first come to W (World, which is beyond body A). So many are stuck in W. There is business, family, education, status all in W. Beyond W, you will be stuck in Body, then in Mind. Only then you can even touch R. Master will make you skip all these. Are you W, A, B, R? No. All of these are changing. Why are you bothered about them? The one that is changeless is sick: C. He is like a maha viran (a great one) who has a boon that he cannot die. But he is tightly bound by an iron mul veli, thorn-fence. Will he be free? Happy? But he has the boon of immortality. Similarly, we say daily Ātma cannot be destroyed, does not die. But Ātma is also not free! Either he by himself should free himself from the fence. Or someone must help. This is the state of Ātma. If you look at Jesus’s photo you will see a mul-veli around the image of his heart. This is the tragic state. So if you say I don’t know why I’m feeling sad, it is because of this. Can you not accept this scientifically? There is that trace.